I start my first official day of work tomorrow.

As in, 9-5, totally legit, big-girl-job.

And I haven’t graduated yet.

I start work tomorrow.

HOLY SHIT I’m old…. and I already love it.

Sometimes I feel like I’m overflowing with love. Like nothing can wipe the smile off my face, dance in my room by myself, out of control, overwhelming love. I can feel it in my heart beating out of my chest.

For people, for places, for objects, for situations, for the state I’m in.

Sometimes I want to bottle up this feeling and save it for a rainy day, for those times when I’m in hate, angry at the world, and ready to call it a day as my life breaks into pieces. To save it and bust it out and remember that sometimes, most times, life isn’t as bad/stressful/crazy as it seems.

That kind of love.

my back hurts.
I do believe I need to treat myself to a massage.
think I’ll get on that ASAP.

The second installment of funny conversations between myself and my Short Blond Roommate. I can see where these are probably only funny in my head, but that is totally beside the point. Enjoy.

I miss my boo. I miss the outrageous banter, the silly chatter, the stupid jokes, the endless teasing, and the  sweet goodbyes. I miss my friend being the last person I talk to at the end of the day.

I don’t know how to explain our relationship. I wouldn’t know where to start, but it means the world to me.

I don’t know where he went.

I can’t remember how long he’s been gone.

I’m not sure how to get us back.

But it means the world to me:

“Sounds good – thanks!  We will see you on Tuesday the 1^st!!!!”

(Regarding this post and this post…. I’m starting to feel better already. And maybe in a few days/weeks I can update as to why… )

could I please stop overanalyzing my LIFE right now?!

BFF: So I’m coming to see you this weekend! I’m so excited I can’t stand it!!!

Me: YAY! We’re going to have so much fun!

BFF: I know! First I called K to tell her about it and she was all lkjsdaf;ljadsf!!!!!!!!!

Me: -oh-

BFF: Then I called E and she was like, BAHHHHH!!!!

Me: Huh. You are staying with me and you called me third?

BFF: Oh. Well. You sometimes don’t answer your phone and sometimes… blah blah…and I just knew they would both answer first because you are the busiest and ………

Me: Yeahhhh…ouch.

LIST EDITION! BECAUSE I HAVE LOTS OF WORRIES THESE DAYS!

• That I might fail my Anthropology class. Even though, multiple times, I’ve messed with the numbers and it’s highly unlikely.
• That someone will say something to someone that will somehow and screw up some really big things for me since I opened my big mouth. It was a catch-22, really. And celebration was in order, so I couldn’t keep my mouth shut. (I mean, you can’t rescind a JOB OFFER can you?!)
• That my house will go un-subleased, and that my dad will pay for an empty room. Like I’m not already sucking enough money out of him.
• That my little brother will estrange himself from my family. That little punk is always getting in trouble, and while its unlikely that he would estrange himself, I have to worry about him. Right?
• Oh hell, we might as well throw money in there, too.
• and finally, I’m worrying ABOUT worrying. I’m telling you, people, this is a vicious* cycle

* I had to Google** “vicious.”

**Speaking of Google, I finally got my WAVE invite.  Am I done worrying? Almost. SIKE.)

SBR (my Short Blond Roommate [as opposed to Tall Blond Roommate], if you’re just checking in) and I tend to keep each other updated throughout the day with things we find particularly funny, stupid, hilarious, ignorant, annoying important. I decided they were worth compiling for nothing if not our own amusement, so to get us started…..